My name is Leda Kubiak and I praise God Almighty for the opportunity to serve Him and learn what it means to LOVE with ALL my heart. I praise Him for Weigh Down Ministries, which God has used in a mighty and powerful way to change my life. I was raised going to church every Sunday and Wednesday. I attended a private Christian school from Kindergarten-12th grade. At church I was always taught how much God loves me and I truly believed that I loved Him because I was a "Christian" and did all the "Christian" things...read my Bible, prayed, went to church, Bible studies, mission trips, etc. I followed all of the religious rules and believed this meant I had a relationship with God.
The older I got the emptier I felt and started constantly worrying about myself. My actions showed that my life was completely focused on myself and what I wanted to do and when I wanted to do it. I would say I loved God and that He ruled my life and externally people would tell me that was true, however my mind was consumed with myself, my wants and my unmet desires. I was full of pain, but tried to hide it. This pain led to increased worry about my body, food, dieting and exercise to lose weight. I tried to control my life and everything around me, but did not know how to deal with stress, worry, and difficult situations. I knew I should give God control of my life, but I didn’t know how. Things got worse in college and I gained more and more weight. Desperate for answers, I cried out to God for help and He sent His Truth through the Weigh Down Ministries.
I witnessed my mother and sister do Weigh Down and completely transform into different people. Not only did they lose weight and set free from an eating disorder, but they were full of JOY and a passion for God that I wanted. At my first WD class I knew that it was different because I had always been in church and had never been able to change my ‘bad habits.’ In my first class I was set FREE from the daily pain and worry that enslaved me and learned that it was my own sin causing my pain and that Jesus came to set me FREE to have a whole heart for GOD. I learned to transfer my desire for more food or worry to a deep LOVE for God and how to run to Him for everything. I learned that sin was inside my heart and doing what I wanted to do when I wanted to do it and I could choose to live for God’s Kingdom instead of for myself. In ALL my years in church no one ever told me how to do that. I found FREEDOM from my sins by obeying God's Word and developing a deep LOVE and FOCUS on HIM. I am a completely different person both outwardly, but more importantly in my heart. I lost 35lbs and was delivered from pride, worry, anxiety, excessive exercise, dieting, control and overeating. I now wake up every day FULL of love, joy and peace that can only be from God. Through Weigh Down I have kept my weight off since 2003 and have now gone through my first pregnancy and quickly returned back to my pre-pregnancy weight without dieting. This program is true Freedom and permanent. The blessings are too numerous to count!!! I know I love God because He consumes my thoughts and I long to obey His Word. He is everything and I love serving Him by serving others. I can't wait to find ways to serve His church, my boss, my family, my friends or anyone God puts in my life. I no longer worry about what I want. I have true joy and complete contentment from seeing God in the birds, trees, flowers, and sky and I can't believe He has given me LIFE to Praise and obey Him every minute of every day!!! I could not be happier or more grateful!!!