Before Weigh Down
I weighed 206 pounds. I was on three different types of medication for fibromyalgia, which is a multi-symptom disease. I had severe muscles spasms in my back and neck and one medication for that. I would wake up extremely tired and had another medication to help me sleep at night. My biggest problem was severe headaches. I got a lot of smaller headaches day-to-day, and my doctors had me on a third medication to try to prevent the headaches. But nothing could stop the severe headaches that I got at least once a month. They were so severe that my husband would take me to the emergency room for a shot of Demerol to stop the pain. Sometimes I would have to go back four hours later for a second shot because the pain was still there. I also had a history of failed diet plans. I tried Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, Acutrim, Dexatrim, Metabolift, low carb, low fat, and even bought a kit called 'The Neuropsychology of Weight Control’ to lower the set point on my metabolism. I would struggle to lose weight on any of these plans, and the little bit that I could lose, I could never keep off. I would always end up losing hope, because I would know that I could not keep doing any of these programs for the rest of my life. So eventually I would give up and gain the weight back plus usually a few pounds more. I was married, but we lacked peace, and had three children. When the youngest one turned a year old, I still weighed pretty much the same as I did the day I went in for delivery. Then in February of 2000, I was blessed to have someone give me a copy of Gwen's second book Rise Above. That is what started my journey to a closer relationship with God, and I have not been the same since.
After Weigh Down
Since reading Rise Above and doing Weigh Down classes, I have lost 96 pounds and kept it off for over eight years. I am happy to report that as a result of losing all the weight, I no longer take any medication. Gone is the pain of severe headaches and muscles spasms. Gone are the senseless diet programs that could never set me free. I praise God that because of Weigh Down I am permanently set free from 96 pounds of greed, and I have no fear that I am going to gain it back. I am set free from the slavery of counting fat grams or calories, and feeling guilty if I want to eat some chocolate. It is so joyful to eat between hunger and fullness. My health now in my 40’s is so much better than it was in my 30's. I praise God for this wonderful relationship that I get to have with him. Who am I that I should even get this chance to serve the Most High God of the Universe? My marriage is blessed with so much peace now. My three boys are sweet and have learned the joy of having a relationship with God and looking to respect and serve their parents. My life has changed in every way, and it is all because of turning to God and looking for his lead in everything. It is so beautiful to get up each day and drop on my face and thank God for waking me up and giving me another day. I love telling God that it is not my day, and not my way. It is all about Him!!! I love going through the days just looking for what God wants and doing it. I live to make God smile. I live with the goal of one day hearing, "Well done good and faithful servant.” I am nothing special. Anyone can have this joy, peace, and this relationship with God. All that it takes is laying down your will and picking up God's will instead. There are tests, trials, and refinement, and there is suffering in laying down your will. But as Paul says in II Corinthians 4:17-18, “For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”